Just somebody that I used to know.... - funkybunny

Hi all, Well it's been a while! I was intending on turning this blog into a book but it's going to take me months to finish so in the mean time I shal continue to post. It's all been quite hectic this end. Inbetween trying to push my career forward as much as I can, planning a holiday to Blackpool and sorting my debts out, it's been stressful to say the least! I'm doing really well with healthy eating and I've been going to the gym 3 times a week to try and fight the fat! And I have to say I feel 100% better for it. Sorted all my budgets out last night and it looks like this year is going to e a good one! Holidays, Sonisphere, Birthdays, Gigs.... I'm frikkin' excited.

I've been pondering over a few things the past couple of weeks.... Like should you really say how you feel? Sometimes people don't want to hear the truth and retaliate by just turning on you, but then again it's not something new for me. I mean, why feel a certain way and not say something? There is far too many 'nice' people in the world. If we all agreed with everybody else the world would just stop. I guess it's not about knowledge, or the relationship you have with that person, but it's about knowing you have spoken your mind, right or wrong. And generally you would only be upset or concerned about somebody if you cared in the first place; so surely saying how it is is the best option. Why should I sit back and pretend some things are acceptable when in fact they are not. Too many people are used to hearing why they want to hear rather than facing something head on. Some people are fighters, some people are runners. I guess that's just how humans are... I would hope I'm a fighter. I may end up with a totally different set of people around me, but at least you know they would say it how it is rather than agreeing because they think it will 'hurt your feelings'. Blah. The more it spins in my head the more I feel that I should dig my heels in and stand by my decision and stand by something I've said. Hmm. We'll see what happens, but I'm so done saying sorry for things I meant. even in the heat of the moment, the actual facts stated are truth... Anyway..... I shall continue on as per usual. At the end of the day some of the worst things somebody would have to go through has already happened in my life. Maybe it's made me a tougher person and less likely to give in.... But either way, I am standing my ground. It's just in my blood. On that note I'm off to bed! Night all!!