I lost it all, all to you
I sold my soul to the devil
And I met you

You see when I was, when I was your lover
Knowone asked questions, knowone asked who
We just sat back and listened to storys gone by
Came out from our shells and took all we could
Sunlight on my face and I couldn't breathe anymore

Its midnight and I can't see, and I wanna see, I wanna see, I wanna see you.
I took my step back, wheres yours?
Why do I feel that I have to be this.

I feel ready for this, are you

Its still unsteady, and I will hold your hand and guide you through, but you must let me love you

Oh, should I take my hearts advice and throw the key away.

Is it worth this pain.

Is it worth the dark and blue days

I'm not sure baby, if i can look you in eye, and say everything's gonna be alright.

I'm the giver not taker, but i'll take if your leavin me, leavin me alone.

Oh its taking so long, I could be wrong, and I could be ready.

Its like a tornado before the calm
Like the crying eye of the beast
With the soft whisper of you
I can't seem to hold you like I want to

Like a ship thats been hit, were going down
Sinking effortlessly to the ground
Were going down
Go cry about it, why don't you

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to trust
I tried to lose my soul to you, but you knew it was already lost
I tried to find myself, but I was gone
I can't seem to hold you like I want to

Like a ship thats been hit, were going down
Sinking effortlessly to the ground
Were going down
Go cry about it, why don't you

Hiya,

Well its been an odd couple of weeks.

Been working as a Project Assistant which i've loved, and then got put in the shittest temp placement yesterday, so told them to stick it!

I need a permenant job, I'm just biding my time so I can get something I want to stay with.

Me and Martin very nearly split up. Again. It was my fault, and I won't go into the details. I just made a stupid mistake, and I still feel I might of ruined any chance of it getting any further.

I just need more commitment and stability. Its odd how we search for things that we think will improve our lives in one way or another, and how our pereption of what's right and wrong gets deluded.

I've got Chelle, Alex, Alex's mate, and Liz coming over this weekend, and I'm getting totally off my tits.

For some reason, today I just feel like getting in a dark corner and having a good 'ol cry.

No i'm not depressed, I'm just messed up.

Going down to wales for a long weekend in a couple of weeks and going to watch my Sister and Dad zorbing, and then taking my sister horse riding on the Saturday.

Yes, i'm going horse riding!

I've also decided if I give all my soul and energy to earning money now, in the future i'll be comfy enough to do something I love.

But you never know, I might find a company that I love. I already have but their not hiring. Feck.

I just don't know, I'm giving 100% to everything, but my hearts only 50% in it.

DIfficult to understand how thats possible? YES. YES IT FUCKING IS!

Cooper's as cute as ever, but has got into an awful routine.

Sleep, Treats, Dinner, Hump the crap out of a toy dog.

Poor thing. I brought the Lady from Lady and the Tramp at a boot sale the other weekend, and he has humped her so much she has a raped expression on her face.

But I must say, as long as its not my thigh or leg he's going at, its bareable.

I've also just heard a Dresden Dolls song...

Boys wear overcoats in heat like this to keep themselves from showing.
Girls fill out prescriptions for the tricks that keep their hearts from growing.
Specialists review the year in tears and call for drastic measures:
"Send them to resorts for boys and girls to get their wits together!"

Sad, but true—the facts of life are bound to get you down.
So what's the use, dear Jenny? Anyway, the world is pretty...

Ashley talks to astronauts back home by means of fax transmission.
Andy gets a new tattoo each time he gets back bathroom privelege.
Weary, oh so drearily, we wave our flags into the camera.
It's Amber goes the hotline, we're all friends but no one ever answers

Sad, but true—the truth can turn your smile to a frown.
So what's the use, dear Jenny? Anyway, the world is pretty
upside-down...

The rates are better in the summer.
Oh-a-o-a-oh-a-oh
The rates are better in the summer.
Aohhh, aohhh
Looks like old Jenny's doing better...
Oh-a-o-a-oh-a-oh
The rates are better in the summer.

Back at home, the broadcast warning bounces off of an empty table.
Jenny asks the astronauts to sleep with her behind the stable.
Christmas hasn't been the same since Dad put in the central heating—
checks you before bedtime with a battery to keep your new heart beating.

And the world might turn a million times around before
they tell you, Jenny. Anyway, the world is happy, world is happy,
world is happy, world is happy.

Sometimes they let strangers in and other times they check their records;
When they check out in the morning, Dad puts out the lie detectors.
Jenny prays to gods she's never heard of for a special warning.
All the walls stay dead as Jenny's head is
but shes still observing.

Sad, but true—the two of us might really make it through.
So what's the use, dear Jenny? Anyway,
the world is happy—
world is happy—
world is happy without you...

The rates are better in the summer....
Oh-a-o-a-oh-a-oh
The rates are better in the summer....
Aohhh, aohhh
Looks like old Jenny's doing better...
Oh-a-o-a-oh-a-oh
The rates are better in the summer....



Hahaha....

I swear these are made me with me in mind!

Anyway! I'm off to shower and do more job hunting.

Tootle pop x